Tasting snow

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Face down in the white, skis at odds, snowflakes up my left nostril, I practiced mindfulness and observed silence.

The silence of the mountains.

The silence of a metre of fresh snow.

The silence of The Instructor, a relentlessly positive man, finally lost for words.

Clarity came at last.

Skiing is suicide and I am not ready to die.

I blame the French.

Not the people – the language.

You see, learning French at my age had given me ideas. I imagined that with hard work, determination and a pair of comfy new ski boots, I would come out the other side of a 10-day Christmas ski holiday in Austria and Switzerland able to ski like I can speak French – artlessly but well enough to get by and have fun.

Turns out that my fear of injury is very much greater than my fear of failure.

If you want to get down a mountain you have to point your skis down, look down, lean forward down and, most suicidal of all, open up your arms to the distant valley in the same pose as someone who has just tipped themselves off a tall building and is calling out to gravity: “Take me!”

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The only way out of this is not up

It goes against nature. Mine, anyway.

Do people not realise how dangerous this sport is?

Before we even arrived in Austria we saw evidence in a pretty Swiss ski village where we stopped for a sandwich and observed an alarming number of people limping about on crutches.

“This is just weird,” said Large.

How had all those people injured themselves? The ski season had barely begun. The mountains were green and not at all snowy. If this wasn’t some kind of  “take the waters” kind of spa town, we were in a very dangerous place indeed.

We got the flock out of there before anyone could break an ankle.

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Small made the most of his rabbit hole in the back seat

It wasn’t easy folding the family back into the car with five bags of  winter clothes, five ski helmets, five ski jackets, five pairs of ski pants, Christmas presents, secret Christmas presents and Sabbatical Man’s brand new pair of skis plus the odd electronic device, two pairs of ski boots, bags of books, colouring pencils, blank paper, bags of pineapple lumps, three special blankets, three pillows, various soft toys, some chocolate and five cheese and salami sandwiches.

We continued on to Zürs –  high up in the Austrian Alps and one of the few places to have snow in the week leading up to Christmas.

What a charming village with its chocolate box setting and a lovely family-run hotel that offered the perfect balance between warm hospitality and military efficiency.

But there was already blood in the streets – and not just figuratively dripping from the furs and diamonds. Actual human blood. All over the show.

There was also blood on the pistes. On his first day out, Sabbatical Man helped a crashed woman who had so much blood pouring out of her mouth that he couldn’t understand a word she was saying. Things improved when she switched to English, but still.

There were litres of blood in the anecdote shared by my French friend holidaying in the same town: her friend severed his femoral artery in a freak ski accident here (picture early Peter Jackson flick). They had to close the piste because there was so much blood in the snow.

“I hope you are all wearing helmets,” her husband added helpfully, in the safety of the hotel bar. “You would be insane not to in these conditions.”

He survived, by the way, the friend with the slashed artery. Austrian snow rescue is top notch. There are millions of rescue helicopters just waiting to scrape up ski victims within seconds of their smash-ups.

Austrian helicopter rescue personnel gather together for morning prayers

The Instructor shared bloody stories too.

“Yeah, they send people to dig the blood out when there’s a bad accident because it stays there for a long time and people don’t like it.”

Sometimes The Instructor said too much.

“Why do people always talk about Michael Schumacher?” he asked, with feeling on the chairlift one day. “Just because he has a lot of money. Skiing is an extreme sport. There are so many skiers who suffer terrible, horrific injuries just like his and no one cares about them.”

Then he began listing his brother’s terrible, horrific ski injuries and I had to mentally start counting backwards from 100 in French (which is completely impossible) to drown him out.

Extreme sport? Horrific injuries? Blood in the street? Any sensible woman would pack up her family and flee to safety or at least confine everyone to tobogganing and après-ski activities.

Instead, I encouraged the boys to stick with ski school and praised them and their father as they progressed higher into the mountains with each day, while I wombled around the learner slopes.

I had to toughen up down there to deal with the queues. We’re talking about a different species of child here – and I’ve known some monsters. I soon learned to adopt a Queen Elizabeth II stance, leaning heavily on my poles to block the brats who spiked me with their poles, clattered over my skis and shoved me brutally to one side in their desperation to get in front.

These six-year-old future barristers, surgeons, Ministers of the Crown, oil magnates and mafia overlords were astonished to find themselves momentarily thwarted in their path to the top of the queue, the mountain, the world.

“I’m from New Zealand,” I thought loudly at them, as I pointedly let through the polite few poppets who had waited their turn. “It’s a fairytale kingdom where respecting strangers is not a weakness, you little shits.”

Back at the hotel, casualties were mounting at an alarming rate and marriages were suffering.

First to go down was an angry English woman who shattered her knee so badly she needed a kilo of steel to shore it up – on day two of her 10 day holiday.

Her husband was philosophical. “We’ve been skiing together for three decades and it’s the first time something like this has happened,” he said at lunch, cheerily shrugging on his jacket and heading outside, his wife following him with her eyes.

Raw materials outside a Zürs crutches and artificial leg manufacturing plant

Raw materials outside a Zürs crutches and artificial leg manufacturing plant

Next was the oil company executive who usually breakfasted at the table behind us. “Daddy will do his best to be back from hospital tomorrow,” his wife cooed to their little princess.

(The day before she’d been saying: “I know honey, but it’s just how it looks when E**** pays only five per cent tax….people just don’t understand,” and  “Can you imagine the next time they come to the door and say: ‘Ma’am, are you for clean water?’ if I just said ‘No, actually I’m not.’ Can you imagine? Ha ha honk. ‘No, we’re not for clean water’.”)

The poor German woman from the table by the window tore up her knee slipping on ice in the street! She was a marvel at stretching her trousers right over top of that huge knee-brace but her sour-looking husband rolled his eyes as she limped up to the breakfast buffet for the second time.

The dining room was starting to look like a war hospital and I know you think I’m exaggerating but this one time the truth is good enough to make it into the story.

And still, faced with the bloodshed, out we went every day.

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A safe alternative to skiing is walking to the shops – if you don’t slip on the ice or blood from your fur

I decided to ramp up the cost of what was already turning out to be the most expensive holiday of our life by booking several lessons with The Instructor. What a man: two metres of good looks, patience, youth and speed, hand-braked on the easy slopes with a woman his mother’s age who could not follow simple instructions.

“Open your arms up to the welly,” he would say. “Give the skis time. Relax. Keep your weight forward. Suspension! Look down the slope. Weight forward. Knees! Look to the welly! Open your arms. Drop your shoulders. Bend your knees. Breathe!”

I tried. I really did. I pushed myself. I took it easy on myself. I smiled and looked at the mountains.

Peace before the piste

Time after time, I shook out my shoulders, breathed out the fear, pointed my skis downhill, leaned forward, opened my arms up to the valley, felt myself gather speed… and panicked.

On Christmas Day, I suggested that we have a leisurely family ski morning after presents and breakfast – which everyone was keen on until discovering that we would have to catch a bus to find a slope flat enough for me.

“Can’t we go with Dad?” whined Large.

“Not the beginners’ slopes!” said Small.

“Mum it’s just that you are not a very good skier,” said Medium.

Christmas Day on the beginners’ slopes

They humoured me because I am the boss of them and it was fun doing my enormous turns and watching my family zip away down the slopes, seeking out the little bumps and jumps to try to make it interesting.

On the last day in Austria I decided that I had made enough progress to propose that The Instructor guide Sabbatical Man and me on the run between a neighbouring village, Lech, and our wee village, Zürs. Large had done this run a couple of days earlier and was buzzing about its ease, fun and breathtaking views.

He did it in the sunshine on hard-packed snow. We did it in low cloud, zero visibility, moderate snowfall and that skier’s dream: a metre of fresh powder. Excellent if you’re a pro – nightmare if you are a beginner because you have no idea where the ground is. Did I mention it is a red piste? Red is for danger. Red means stop right there.

I could not tell up from down. My glasses frosted up, my jaw clenched. I fell forward, backward and sideways. I fell up. I fell down. That was the first 500m of, I don’t know, five kilometres? A hundred?

We got to the end about 50 hours later and I was so wiped out that I could barely drum up a thank you for The Instructor who may have lost his words but never his patience.

Sabbatical Man had gone ahead to see our boys compete in the end-of-week ski school races and The Instructor and I arrived just in time to see that all three had placed either 1st, 2nd or 3rd in their races.

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Medium (hairy eyeballs) and Small (moustache) on the dais

Feeling very proud, I reached for my phone to take a picture.

Gone.

Stupid, stupid, stupid. Instead of safely zipping it into a pocket I had slipped it into a deep internal compartment inside my jacket to keep it warm.

The Instructor and Sabbatical Man thought it was lost forever but this crappy day was not going to get any worse.

I grabbed Sabbatical Man’s phone in the now heavily falling snow, downloaded an app and tracked my phone.

“Look.” I said, jabbing at the map. “It’s there.

The two of them glanced back up at the darkening sky.

The chairlifts were due to close, the snow was deep and smartphones do not like the cold but there is a knight at the heart of every horseless man so off they went on my futile quest.

Half an hour later it was back in my hand, bless them – found safe and sound, beating its little electronic heart out deep in the snow, high on the side of the mountain where I had done my last face-plant.

My mood lifted. Skiing was done for the day, a warm restaurant awaited, tomorrow was a travel day and Medium was showing signs of the ‘flu which meant I might need to take a break from skiing in our next destination, the Swiss mountain village of Saas-Fee. And that’s what happened.

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Saas-Fee moonlit

So, no, I didn’t learn to ski very well but I did learn that I love the mountains in moonlight even more than sunlight, I love the tiredness and shared experience of a day on the slopes, I love the simple pleasure of tomato soup or hot chocolate or hot wine when you come in from the cold. I even love the cold.

I am also starting to forget what I was so scared of so I’m not giving up on this suicidal sport just yet.

And did I mention that it snowed prettily on Christmas Eve and all of Christmas Day to make our first family White Christmas all that we had hoped?

Happy New Year and thank you so much for reading in 2014.

 

9 thoughts on “Tasting snow

  1. Brilliant Karen – I feel a real sense of kinship with you now after spending a challenging & ultimately unsuccessful week on the snow this year! I have gleaned a speck of hope from your post – perhaps I can persevere another round and of course be thankful no blood has been shed – yet! Matt is busy planning us an overseas excursion for next nz summer ….. I’m kinda staying quiet (another challenge) and trying to channel your positive summary – hot wine!
    Sounds like a fab trip and we love your updates – we’re just toasting away at Pauanui & I’ve read your post out to the whanau who are all now in fits of giggles. Thanks for that and a very happy 2015 🙂

  2. What a great story to wake up to – first thing I read today-can’t wait to ski with you in Tekapo xxx P.S you could hang out wth Katrina!!’

  3. Kaz we’ve all been in fits of laughter at your post …I can so relate to your thoughts and feelings, being the novice skier of the family. I loooove the photo’s: what wonderful experiences and memories made for you and the Whanau. Keep up the stories and anecdotes, you brighten our days.xx

  4. Pingback: Tears and pears in the French Alps | cat in my throat

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